Saturday, May 12, 2012


Posting will be so much easier now that I have the blogger app. They should have made one of these FOREVER ago! Can you believe you're hearing from me twice in one day?
Just thought I'd share a couple pictures with you. :)

Morgan is working tomorrow, so I have to take my meds and go to bed. I'm just so excited to have this app, I'm sure that soon enough you'll get tired of reading my rambling mind work.

Nevertheless, have a great night everyone!!


Friday, May 11, 2012

Too little time!

It's almost been a month since I last posted! Okay, well a lot has happened in the last month. Most of it sucks, but hey that's life, right?

Here's what you should know:

I was in the hospital for 3 weeks! I was having low grade fevers for a week before I went in, and continued to have them for another 2 weeks. After a zillion tests we finally added another antibiotic, and my fevers miraculously went away. I got better, gained some of my strength back, started eating and sleeping again. What a relief! And then I came home, which was honestly the best thing that happened to me all month.

While I was in the hospital my favorite nurse, who I've known since I was 5, retired. The hospital I've known for most of my life is changing right before my eyes. But that's true about everything in my life. I guess I change too, I just feel like I'm stuck where I am. I'm f*ing stationary while the world moves on around me. I know that it's not a forever thing, I just have to wait till it's my time, & all the opportunities I missed will come back in some form or another. That's how the world works. I'm extremely optimistic!

So I'm finally home with my puppies, and wow, they really need a firm hand right now. They are out of control, & honestly driving me a little nuts at times. Especially Fancy, who doesn't seem to want to listen to me. :( Frustrating. She's so wonderful though, even if she's a little stinker sometimes. She's SUPER fluffy right now, both my babies need to get groomed. Badly!
Home is a very refreshing place to be, & with all the great sunny weather I can't help but feel alive & happy. Which is EXACTLY how I want to feel. All I want in my life right now is positivity, and love. So I'm spending lots of time with my in-laws, who are all amazing and lovely. I feel lucky every single day to be apart of the May family, but mostly to be Morgan's wife. I love that guy more than anything. I'm spending lots of time with my Morgan, & my mom. My 2 bestest friends in the world, the 2 most tremendous people I know.

There's so much more going on, I'm afraid I have to cut this one short. I'm running low on time, & I have to stop by Michael's for some art supplies. I have a couple paintings to finish by next week, & I'm REALLY wanting to just paint them. I planned out my next series as well, which I'm so excited about I could die!

Hope everyone out there is having a fantastic day!



Wednesday, April 18, 2012

April 17th

It's April 18th, barely, and yesterday was my dad's birthday. He would have been 62. I don't think I have mentioned him that much on this blog. That's probably for the best, because my relationship with his memory is intensely private.

But from my hospital bed, and running on no sleep, I just wanted to say...

I love you more than there are stars in the sky.
Happy Birthday Dad!

I'll update later tomorrow. I literally haven't slept more than 4 hours in the last day and half.


Thursday, March 1, 2012

Februaryyy in a nut shell

It's officially been over a month since my last blog entry. In the last month I have had my best friend come home, turned 22, and been to Seattle. To say it's been a busy month is a bit of an understatement. Although this is coming from someone who spends most of her days in a hospital waiting room, in a hospital bed or more favorably on her couch. ;D

Sooo.... I turned 22!!!! What an amazing adventure my life has been so far. My life is not glamorous, but I sure feel privileged to be living it. This year I felt super lucky to have several days of celebration, celebrating with (most) of my favorite people. It was an incredible birthday! I had so much fun. Of course the only picture of me is the goofiest thing that ever existed. My niece and nephew don't look super psyched to be on my lap, but I sure look happy to have them.

Of course the following week was busy too. I had 2 transplant clinic appointments in Seattle. So we went up to Seattle for 4 days. I actually got to go somewhere interesting. Usually we are only there for like a day so we don't really do anything. Even though I was really exhausted after the first day, it was still a lot of fun. But pretty much anything is fun when I have a Jena Brown by my side. That girl has been my little lifesaver/good luck charm all month. Love you Jbear!!

My pains have been pretty out of control this month, I've been trying really hard to manage them, but it's difficult when there are so many and they're all in different spots. That's been a struggle, but it doesn't matter that much to me. I somehow find a way to beat on. I'm due for another hospital stay in about a week and a half, so I'll have to up my gabapentin dose or something. Drrruuuugggsss! I'm all about em'. But my life is ALWAYS going to rely on modern day medicine and the massive amount of pills I take. As long as my memory holds up, I think I'll be alright. Haha!

At the end of crazy February I'm thinking to myself wow, is it really over and thank god it's over. It was the best Feb I've had in years, literally. Last year I was trying to get on the list, the year before that I looking down the barrel of a gun and "decided" to get a transplant. I can say with complete sincerity and enthusiasm that it was the best time I've had in awhile, and holy shit I'm exhausted!
Gotta live life on the edge sometimes, although I'm glad to be making up my loafing time - these times will not last forever.

I will try to keep updating, I'm just so very forgetful and lazy when it comes to blogging. I am on facebook all the time though, and I also have a new Pinterest account
Check it out, and follow me if you want. I am addicted to it! Love it so much.

And finally, to EVERYONE who made my February so incredible, a very loving and deep thank you. The main contributors (as always) My mom, my Morgan, Jena, Shane, Aunt Jeanine, Nana, and my puppies. I couldn't make it a day without any of you. I am so extremely lucky to have all of you in my life - and jeeezzusss IN THE SAME HOUSE!!!

Love to everyone,