Monday, June 13, 2011

I'm sorry it's been awhile.

I just don't know what to write about right now. I've started like 7 entries and haven't finished any of them. Though that fact is probably obvious because of my absence.

Everything in my life is going well. My health is doing the same normal thing. I'm listed now, so not a lot of exciting news there. I haven't had any dry runs, which I'm okay with. Married life is wonderful. Morgan got a job and is working part time. So he has a few days a week to write music, take care of me, and help with the house since we don't pay rent. Which is an important job Morgan has, but he only gets paid with loooove. ;)
The puppies are amazing. Panda is getting to be a little crazy. He's so energetic! Recently he discovered squirrels, which a couple days ago got him stuck in a tree. :P Fancy is sweet and weird as always. But I'm finding, that when it comes to my dogs I can't help but love them no matter what they do. They have become incredible companions, and fantastic entertainment.

I realized that I've talked about what I want out of my life a couple times, but I haven't ever talked about what me and Morgan want to do as a married couple. So I thought this might be interesting.  I've had my attention on this lately anyways.
Some of you know that Morgan and I are using this valuable down time, to map out our lives. We're figuring out what we want to do, where we want to go, what we want to have. It's amazing, and I feel so lucky to have a husband who's aspirations are so full of life. We are talking about college, music, careers, making a home, having babies - just EVERYTHING. That's not something we usually talk about with just anyone, because honestly it's OUR life. I've never lived my life doing things that others wanted me to do, or doing things based on other peoples negative opinions. What I don't want is for people to ASSUME they know what our life is like, and start throwing around their opinions that were created out of assumption. Frankly, if I followed the opinions of others even if it didn't feel right, I probably wouldn't be here right now. SO...I'm not going to start now.
What I'm getting at is this:
We are stong, no one can tell us we're wrong.
Searching our hearts for so long, both of us knowing.

If you recognize those words than you are probably a woman, who has at one point or another listened to Pat Benetar. Those words, how ever silly they might be in a song, are so accurate in this case.
Morgan and I, though we don't know everything, we know what we want out of life. We are planning for the future, and investing our time and our energy in the creation of the life we desire. Living with my parents, and having relatively no financial responsibilities is such a blessing. And I just want to say how THANKFUL we are to my parents who allow us such comfort. Of course we couldn't leave anyways because of this transplant business, but we like living with them. I definitely want to create my own home with the man I love, but I'd rather do that with a new set of lungs in my chest. We're just going to have to wait, and until then, we are going to be damn righteous about our lives. I'm very confident that we can work our stuff out with little help from anyone.

I know it's been over 2 months since I posted, whoops! But honestly, nothing interesting has happened. Ever since I got listed things have been kind of boring. I've just been waitin' for a 206 area code to call me. Speaking of 206, we're in Seattle right now for a transplant clinic appointment. We had a lot of fun last night. It's just me, mom, and Morgan up here this time. But we always have fun when we're together. Morgan is always funny, Mom is just hilarious - most of the time on accident, so there is plenty of laughter on our trips.
I have to go get ready and pack up, we have to check out soon and Morgan is still asleep. I think I'll play "you're the one that I want" till he wakes up. Sound familiar Jena? It was December of 1963.....

Totally sending you love!



Jenae said...
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Jenae said...

Couple goals are so important. It's easy to start traveling in different directions if you don't have similar goals and aspirations. It also helps marry someone that's awesome! ;)

You are so blessed to be able to stay at your parent's house and to have a good enough relationship to do so as well. Being newlyweds can be hard financially for sure! But they are also such sweet times that you will always remember and look back on. :)

Jamie said...

One thing I have learned over the last 12+ years of being married is the people that can accept and cope with all that CF can through at us are truly amazing people! I am so happy you found your amazing person :) Life will get crazy, but you'll only grow closer and fall deeper in love. Trust Me :)

JB said...

Thinking of you too, my love!!! Miss you every day! :)
Yay for Seattle visits and yay for Morgan and Auntie! You guys are too much fun! Love you!